Month: December 2019

#18

I am thankful to say goodbye to this year, this decade. A lot happened this year. A lot that taught me who I am and what I truly want.

I said goodbye to an incredibly beloved pet, a job I actually loved, my single life, my independence, my dreams of fostering all the animals. Some of these goodbyes were rough, not gonna lie.

But I am thankful for everything that happened, without those experiences, I wouldn’t be as wise as I am today.

I am ready to say hello to new experiences. Continued learning and bigger growth. Onward and upward!

#17

I am thankful to be with someone I truly love spending time with. It wasn’t that long ago when I was lonely and alone all the time. I remember how rough it can be. How much dating sucks. How much it sucks to just hang out with people you don’t even like that much, just to be social. Or how much it sucks to go to a bar, alone, because none of your “friends” are available, and you just don’t wanna be home.

Don’t get me wrong, I had a lot of fun alone, sometimes. I think I might even enjoy talking to strangers more than I enjoy talking to people I know. It somehow makes me feel less anxious when I know I’ll likely never see this person again. I LOVE my alone time. And I will always need a good solo recharge, I am truly an introvert for life. I cannot spend a whole lot of time and energy around certain people. Some people are really exhausting for me.

I am married to, live with, and spend every single day with my favorite person alive. And yes, I definitely need my alone time, but we can “be alone” in the same room together, and I am just as comfortable. I’m happy to sit in the same room as him. I prefer sitting on the couch watching tv with him, over going out, spending money, and giving myself a headache.

A lot of people might think that’s lame and boring. I think it’s just a-okay.

#15

Today, I am thankful for the memories I have from living with Lynden.

She got me in our group’s secret Santa, the gift arrived today. She got me a cute candle with Sawyer’s face on it, he got a treat as well, and some other goodies.

But besides what I received… When I saw it came from Oregon, I instantly knew who it was from, and it put a smile on my face. I am thankful for the memories of such a fun time in my life. That apartment we shared on Dodge, was one of my favorites.

Also, a learning experience: you will never need as much paint as the paint salesman says you will.