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What anxiety does

krin — Tue, 31 Aug 2010 04:31:15 +0000

Sometimes I get so consumed with bad thoughts that I really start to believe that everything horrible my brain can think up, must be the complete and total truth. And then, just to exaggerate the ridiculous… I will waste way too much thought, time and energy, looking/digging/searching for tiny details to prove all my tragic theories accurate. When all the while, I’m only hoping for someone to fight me and show me that I’m wrong. However, throwing the first punch never ends well. And I really need to learn to stop getting so wrapped up in my own mind and just relax for once.

And sometimes, I really wish I could convey my thoughts without conversation, because I’m really bad at talking.

how many times did I type the word ‘really’ in this post

True

krin — Thu, 26 Aug 2010 21:48:08 +0000

I cannot get enough of this song..

Adult delay

krin — Fri, 20 Aug 2010 03:04:43 +0000

I’m glad I’m not the only one delaying adulthood for as long as possible.

I got a 10% raise. Go me! Still should probably find that mythical part time job I’ve been daydreaming about. I am so determined to get out of debt from being ripped off the first year living here, it’s all I can think about. Every penny I spend is closely calculated and part of a budget.

So, I think I’ll post progress updates. As of today, right now, the total amount I owe to credit cards: -$3,268.45. Not too bad, I mean, could definitely be worse, and it was. I just really despise the monthly fee and interest rate charges. Projected pay off completion month is April 2011.

At that point, there are a few things I want, need immediately / asap / right away:
- My own place.
- Gym membership.
- Health insurance. Along with this comes new contacts, glasses, dentist. And getting my damn always-in-pain wrist, checked out.
- A sweet bike.
- Lots and lots of new clothes.
- A dart board & a hammock.

I think I’m done with photo-a-day. It gets hard coming up with something worth looking at when you only see the same things every day. Someday, I won’t feel so trapped and restricted, and maybe my life will be fun and interesting again.

This life

krin — Fri, 13 Aug 2010 03:02:15 +0000

Our landlord never cashed my check last month. I’ve never met him or even spoken to him and he doesn’t return any phone calls. So, I didn’t want to send another check out into the abyss until we heard from him. It’s now half way through the month and we haven’t heard a thing.

The neighbors say their checks haven’t been cashed since October. So uh.. I’m not sure what to do about that? Not that I mind living here for free, but something’s not right here and it’s gotten me worried. And I’m not sure how to avoid the possible impending doom of paying OR not paying rent.

However, I get to come home to my favorite person everyday. So, there’s that and that’s good.

08/11/10

krin — Thu, 12 Aug 2010 02:54:54 +0000

Fireworks every Wednesday, but I’d never seen this helium balloon before… wanna do.

08/10/10

krin — Wed, 11 Aug 2010 02:53:24 +0000

These geese did not give a fuuuck, they walked right up and actually formed a circle of grass eating all around us.

08/09/10

krin — Tue, 10 Aug 2010 02:51:53 +0000

So pathetically cute

08/08/10

krin — Mon, 09 Aug 2010 02:50:32 +0000

Our back porch..

08/07/10

krin — Sun, 08 Aug 2010 02:48:46 +0000

We are tourists of our own lives.

08/06/10

krin — Sat, 07 Aug 2010 02:47:16 +0000

This is NOT an acceptable meatball sub.